So what now? I'm ready to take the cowards way out... Give me a good reason not to?

One reason not to? The fact that you posted this. If you were truly at the maximum point of hopelessness, you would have just gone in the bathroom and slit your wrists. But you didn't. You jumped on here and typed all this out -- proof that you're holding out hope. You WANT one of us to give you a good reason not to. And that's because you know deep down that you want to live.